This does not bode well

I think it is time for a new job...


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stuck on repeat in the great unknown

About three weeks ago I had a very intense dream about being in a coma for a year and a half. The dream was very vivid. In it i came down with a fever that put me into a coma. I wake up to find my family and world has changed a lot and I had some serious brain damage. I was experiencing problems with word finding and having general issues of motor control loss. I was also having psychedelic flashbacks to my time in the coma where apparently I was transported to another world. I wandered a cyberpunk world similar to this one, filled with talking stuffed animals and other random shit. It was like a mash-up from one of my favorite children series as a kid The Odyssey and a Terry Gilliam movie.

Ever since that night I have been having very intense dreams, some good some bad. Many seem to occur in the coma world while others are not. One of the recurring themes throughout all of them is variations on the theme of me not finishing university or missing a class or exam critical to me completing things. This really sucks because university was a generally happy time in my life and I am reliving the unfortunate stressful parts of it over and over again.

This all may be due to our new memory foam mattress. I find I am sleeping deeper on it than on any bed I have ever had before.

I really do not mind the intense dreams even the bad ones are great spurs for creativity. But this whole repetition of the failure due to some personal hubris needs to stop.

Music Monday: Uh OH

I am alternatively hot and cold for Beyonce. This track by VNDLSM samples a small line from her and makes something far superior to the original. It came out years ago but i was reminded by it's awesomeness today when it popped up on a playlist. Listen to it here. Dl here.

Sunday at the movies

The fella and I had planned to rent a truck today and clean out his storage unit and get rid of some old mattresses. Unfortunately the ecostation is closed on Sunday which totally sucks because I am not sure when we will have a free weekend again to get rid of all this stuff.

Instead we went with Anna to go see the Book Of Eli. It was a little on the god heavy side and at one point i had to sit back and basically decide to view it as if i were watching something about Greek gods al la Clash of the Titans. Basically i removed all the sociopolitical bullshit that the christianists put out into the world and look at it as if it were based on mythology.

After I did that the movie got much more enjoyable. Well acted (Gary Oldman is always so awesome) and well directed with a fantastic ending. This did the end of the world so much better than Legion did (which was one of the worst movies I have ever seen). Even seeing Mila Kunis kick some ass was enjoyable.

Pleasant surprise: GLBT speed dating at the valley zoo

Edmonton never stops surprising me. With valentines day coming it seems like everyone is preparing for the onslaught of commercialized bullshit and fake sentiment.

The fella and I are celebrating with a bunch of friends by going to see some roller derby. Nothing says I love you like watching girls in hot pants plaster each other all over hardwood.

For you queer singles or swingers the edmonton valley zoo is introducing a gay and lesbian version of the very popular "Animal Attraction: Speed dating" that they hold every year for valentines day. It is the first time they are holding this event and it sounds like it could be a lot of fun and a great chance to meet someone and check out the zoo without any crowds. The clunky name of Same Gender Speed Dating doesn't really speak to me but whatever it sounds like it could be fun!

If anyone goes let me know how it went!

My fellas

We ar having a lazy Saturday on the couch.


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Sad story for a good soul

Coming out is a difficult process for many of us. I know much of this blog has been dedicated to my own personal journey of self acceptance. It blows my mind to think how hard it would be for someone born into the homophobic world of professional hockey to come out and be proud. Brendan Burke was a brave man, a trailblazer and positive example for all of us who fear what others may think.

He was killed last Friday in a car accident. Far too young and noble to be gone from this world already. My heart goes out to his family and and that of his companion Mark Reedy who also passed away in the accident.

Be good to each other.