Wednesday, August 30, 2006

What may be the biggest decision of my life

So i have decided that I am coming out to my parents before new years. I refuse to live another year like this.
Let the plotting begin.

Tuesday, August 29, 2006

Ted Morton the hate monger 0 , Civil rights 2 Yay for civil rights!

So Ted Morton, the progressive conservative backbencher attempted to put forth a bill that I talked about in this post.

It was the second time he has tried to present this bill and it failed miserably again. Undaunted good old Ted the homosexual hater promised to bring it up next year. So for a year us homosssexuals (you must lisp it out loud when you read that) will continue to corrupt the fabric of society with our EVIL gayness unabated. Yay me, immma gonna have to organise some orgies and start corrupting straight guys to the gay cause. You know, just to celebrate! (what really frightens me is that some people actually believe that garbage)

I'm not too worried about old Teddy I know he is just a sad old man using fear mongering as an attempt to get some power. He's like that crazy uncle that no one really pays attention to, just like Ralph Klien. What a looser

Rockstars: supernova is like crack

So I admit it I am hopelessly addicted to Rockstar: Supernova. I look forward to it twice a week and it was the only break I gave myself today from learning CSS style sheets for work.

The episode was a bit disappointing, the sound was messed up from the get go. It was almost impossible to tell how the singers sounded. At least CBS stayed consistent as all the performances sounds were off. I watched the performances again on msn and it was like night and day.
IM going to riff again on Lukas Rossi. I am I the only one who thinks this guy is a talentless hack who is just gothing up the incredibly talented Hawksley Workman's stage persona if you don't believe me check this out. Notice that Hawksley actually sings not growls.

Lukas did keep the identity theft to a minimum tonight and I have no doubt that legions of laughably emo 12 year olds will be voting for him tonight because he is sooooo alternative ugggggg.

Storm did great I think she keeps getting a raw deal with song choice though. What a voice on her.

Does anyone else think that Ryan Star reminds them of David Schwimmer from friends playing a bit part in the direct to video sequel to the classic "this is spinal tap"? Perhaps it would be called "this definitely isn't spinal tap". He just seems fake and boring all at the same time.

Magni was solid as usual he is a total class act.

Where the hell did Toby come from?!!? Seriously I never considered him a contender before tonight, he was always just a pretty face. That performance was such a step up from his others. He still looks uncomfortable on stage but he is getting better every time he gets up there. He even was rocking the crazy rockstar face made famous by ozzy osbourne.

I don't even have to comment on Delana's performance she was rock solid as usual despite this semi manufactured drama surrounding her from last week I still think she is going to win this whole thing. I totally didn't dig the rob zombie look on her tonight tho.

Saturday, August 26, 2006

I leave for a week and this is what happens?

So I am officially back from my vacation to BC with the family. I survived they survived it was ok. Ill update more later with pics and stuff.

One would think I would be happy to come home but there are a few things getting me down. The first thing is Ted Morton the Edmonton MLA is trying to push through bill 208. This bill will be a huge step backward in Alberta. It basically makes it ok for people to discriminate against individuals based on sexual identity. The bill died last may but he may get a chance to squeeze it though on Monday. This article gives a pretty good rundown on what it is all about.

I am pissed off this Ted Morton guy is trying to vilify the gay community and use it as a launching pad for his own doomed foray into the Progressive Conservative leadership race. My hope is that Lyle Oberg wins the leadership as it seems to be he has a slight lead in the Polls over Jim Dinning (who through his actions with his company Finning has shown that he is perhaps the devil incarnate). Oberg is a smart guy and he really takes the time to understand the issues I have had the opportunity to work with him and his office once and from what I saw he would make a great leader for the PCs. I believe he would definitely be the lesser of two evils.

Anyhoo back to this Morton guy and Bill 208. One of the more draconian aspects of the Bill are that it prevents the teaching of GLTB issues in schools without getting 100% parental permission. This really is a sad attempt by a little ignorant man to get some political clout at the expense of a minority group. Sad little homophobes should be banned from politics.

Speaking of politics I think I am going to try and get involved in the Edmonton political scene a little more. I know I have a lot of great ideas and a very unique perspective to present, we will see how things go. I just feel this need to do something all this time spent with my intolerant family is compressing me like a balloon and I feel like I need to start pushing back and getting involved in the greater community as a proudly gay male.

Friday, August 18, 2006

On vacation

Well I leave today for my trip to BC with my family. I need this vacation sooo badley. I am kind of dreading spending copious amounts of time with my folks but it should turn out ok.

I will return to blogging at some point next week, with pictures and stories galore!

Friday, August 11, 2006

The beginnings of a landslide. Shout out out out out's "not saying just saying"

For a long time the Edmonton music scene has been really pumping. While we don't get the recognition of Montreal or Vancouver we really do have a thriving community of great artists up here that are on the cusp of breaking out the scene to international recognition. All we need was that one breakout act that could do for us what the arcade fire did for montreal's soundscape.

Regardless of what douchebag music critics out east think Edmonton has a ton of talent and it is getting to the point of reaching critical mass. That's not to say that what is going on in the scene is going totally unnoticed nationally. At the north by northwest festival one band was recognized almost universally by critics including the globe & mail as standing above the rest. That band is Shout out out out out (Click the link to go to their myspace page and listen to some songs).

Around town they are widely known as having one of, it not thee best live shows around (unfortunately due to my horrible luck I have yet to see them in sweaty rock god glory). However last week they released there first full length CD "not saying just saying". The best way to describe it is mix Daft Punk with two drummers (yes that's two) four bassplayers and a whole lot of awesomeness. That's saying a lot because Daft Punk is pretty much the standard for awesomeness.

The CD is perfect I haven't enjoyed electronica/rock like this for a very long time. The only problem is the CD needs more songs I just don't want it to end!

So in short go buy the CD at your indie music retailer. In 3 years when Shout out out out out is on MTV in front of hundreds of screaming 13 yr old girls you can thank yourself for getting on the bandwagon before some exec got them to get rid of the synthesizers.
Buy it here.
Mark my words the guys are going to be big big big big and before you know it other great Edmonton bands like the Floor are going to get noticed.

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Survival Status

This last day or so has been pretty rough. I feel like I am in haze. It doesn't help that I have come down with a mild cold. I am much better today however. I think I am making a bigger deal out of this for some reason than what it is. What bothers me the most is that Scott was right, I wont ever be able to have a full fledged relationship with someone if I am not out to my family. I have to start fighting more for my needs and stop trying to make everyone else happy. It is my turn to be happy for once and no one can make that happen but me.

I am not going to the peaches concert tonight due to the huge unexpected burden of replacing my two front tires. 200 bucks I think was well spent. It is more than worth the peace of mind.

Oh and I would like to congratulate two of the best friends a guy could ever have Erin and Jorge for finally getting engaged! That wedding is going to be a gong show!

An open letter to: Lukas Rossi of Rockstar: Supernova

Yes I watch this silly reality TV show, but you have to admit that these guys have some real talent, which brings me to my open letter.

Dear Lukas,

I have always been on the fence about you. Being a fellow Canadian I really wanted you to move on through the competition even though something about you didn't quite sit right with me. I was never sure what it was, the affinity for goth accoutrements or that fact that around our house we call you "mister whinny screamy pants" but something familiar in the way you moved and acted seemed redeamable.

Last night as you performed a spastic rendition of Radiohead's creep it finally became clear why I liked you but I didn't like you. You are totally copying the moves of one of my favorite artists, the enormously talented Canadian singer songwriter Hawksley Workman. You have gothed up his look a bit granted but the dance moves and the singing (when you actually do sing) is similar enough to make me think that maybe this wasn't accidental.

Now don't get me wrong I am not accusing you or anything like that. I just find it curious very curious. Regardless I have finally made my mind up about you. While Hawksley does have the chops to front any band in the world I don't think his goth clone does.
Best of luck finding something you can excel at!

Tuesday, August 08, 2006

If your the man you say you are and I am the man I think I can be, then maybe someday...

So I had a huge post ready to go but my comp randomly crashed. This is the shorthand version.

Yesterday was one of the worst days I have ever had in a very long time. Scott and I started the 5 hour trip from Lake Peltier to Calgary. Somewhere along the way we got to talking about our relationship. After almost 3 hours of talking we decided that it would be best to not be together right now. Let me tell you having 5 hours to break up really lets you cover all the issues however I have to admit I was fairly shell shocked. I never saw it coming I knew there were issues but I didn't think it was anything that we couldn't overcome.

So I cried a lot on that drive through the prairie. We got back in Calgary around 5 ish and had dinner at Hooters. I felt like I was having an out of body experience. Once I switched my bags to my car and kissed Scott goodbye and then cried some more as I drove away.

About 45 min out of Calgary on highway 2 I feel the wheel jerk sharply to the left. Then I hear the distinctive thump thump of what used to be a tire. I quickly braked in the heavy highway traffic and swerved to the should to the left of the fastlane, narrowly avoiding a semi that had been riding my ass in the not fun way for the last half hour.

On that narrow shoulder I got out of my seat and looked at the front driverside wheel or should I say what was left of it. I got back into the car and cried. I cried like I haven't cried in years. I cried for a hundred reasons and for none of them in particular. Eventually through the tears I came to a realization: No matter how hard I cried no matter how miserable I was, that tire was not going to change itself. I was totally alone and for the first time in a long time I was ok with that and I was ok with myself. So I stopped crying wiped my face and got to work.

It was a bloody greasy sweaty painful 45 min before I got the old tire off and the new tire on. The spare tire however is much smaller than a regular tire and was intended for temporary use at speeds under 90 km/h. The speed limit on highway 2 is 110 and most people go 120. As it was a holiday Monday at 7 in the middle of nowhere the odds of me getting a new tire were 0. So it took me 5 very slow hours to get from Calgary to Edmonton. But I survived and I think I am better for it.

I feel somehow independent and powerful. I am still pretty broken up about not being with Scott anymore however I cant bring myself to cry about it like I could before. I have walked around all day like a depressed little zombie but for the first time in a long time I am totally ok with it because I know this is all just happening to make me stronger.

I will be posting uber pretty pics from my trip tonight or tommorow

Saturday, August 05, 2006

Oh NO! Not them too!

Well one of my favorite bands has announced that they are breaking up. Death from Above 1979 was awesomeness personified. I will miss them and look forward to the separate projects that they will hopefully produce. My one regret is that I didn't get to see them live.
*single tear*

Cubs night out

Had an awesome time at the gay bar! This is a rare occurrence for me but it was a good time.
I am leaving for Calgary/Saskatchewan tomorrow to see Scott and then head camping. Ill post those pics when I get them.

The reason I am posting is because of this video:

This is just way to awesome to even describe. I like OK GO and the last video the released was pretty good but this this is brilliant. Check out there newish CD its pretty catchy!

Wednesday, August 02, 2006

Popping Cherries left and right.

So had an awesome day yesterday. Ryan moved to Edmonton from Halifax for school and I finally got to meet him in person after a year or two of chatting. He was a little shell shocked and jet lagged but I managed to take him on a tour of the city and most importantly take his IKEA virginity.

I don't care how many penises and man bums you have touched naughtily, as far as I am concerned you can't really call yourself gay unless you have oohhed and ahhhhed over reasonably priced Scandinavian furniture and accessories (incidentally I want a POÄNG chair if anyone cares). I'm only being half serious tho, that place usually has quite the selection of hotties to ogle. I know the one in Calgary has a particularly hot man working in the businesss furniture area ;)

I digress from my original topic however. So we ended up meeting with Matty and his friends and Blake for some beers at Woody's. It was all pretty laid back but fun.

In other news I am taking Friday off from work to tentatively go to Saskatchewan with Scott. He hasn't called me back to confirm tho.