Tuesday, December 30, 2008
Monday, December 29, 2008
I have generally been having a fantastic time on my vacation.Went and saw MSTRKRFT who was djing on Saturday with Greg and Matt. It was a bit much for the 40 dollar tickets considering only half of the duo was there (Jesse Keeler was MIA). The other annoyance was they didn't play a single song from any of the CDs or remixes. Other than that i danced my ass off and my calfs are super sore.
I have been trying to clean up and organize and eliminate the things i don't need or use anymore. Partially in prep for Greg moving in and partially becuase i really need to clean out some junk.
One of my christmas gifts was new comic book storage boxes. As some of you may know I have a rather large collection of comic books that are all being stored rather poorley right now in inaccesible long boxes. These new boxes are great becuase the act like drawers so you can stack your comics and still et to them.
I spent most of my day moving the few thousand books and generally alphabetizing and organizing them.
Here is what my living room looked like at the mid point (there were still 4 small boxes in my closet).
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
This is going to be a big Christmas this year as it will be the first one that Greg and I have actually spent together and it will be the first time my boyfriend has gone to a family Christmas event.
I feel a little bad for him he has no idea what he is getting into. Additionally I have to admit i am a little nervous about some drunk family member saying something obnoxious but all in all i think we will be ok.
One thing that super pisses me off is that i bought some wrapping paper for presents this year and apparently they no longer put the cardboard tubes in them. Instead my paper came with a five inch wide thicker paper sheet in it to help it keep its shape. How am I supposed to have wrapping paper tube sword fights without the tubes!! That is like a critical aspect of xmas funnery!! Its the little things damn it!
In closing I want to wish all of my readers and commenters a very Merry Christmas and a fantastic holiday season. Here's hoping you get a visit from a man dressed in red and white like the guy pictured below ;)
Friday, December 19, 2008
So far we have:
Gunther biganlong (my old stand by)
Ed Monton (my personal fav so far)
Any ideas guys?
Thursday, December 18, 2008
I have no idea how I am going to pay. I hope i can get a line of credit to cover this.
Or start a porn career.
Friday, December 12, 2008
Three days of downtime is totally unacceptable. So you can imagine my dismay when this morning I woke up and everything was still down. After doing some DNS testing it seemed like everything was working the way it should.
As I walked into the office this morning (prepared for another day of hellish calls from angry sites) everything clicked and started working.
Needless to say we are moving to an enterprise level SLA with a them asap.
Saturday, December 06, 2008
I even took 2 and half days off of work (i cant remember the last time i took 2 days off in a row)
I still feel like hell
Hopefully I will be able to go in on Monday.
Greg my super awesome boyfriend is picking me up icecream for my ravaged throat.
He is so awesome.
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
I personally love how the conservative spin machine is talking about this coalition as a undemocratic power grab. They are also using words like socialism and communist to describe the left wing. Unforutnalty its not 1960 and we are not living in the US so i really don't think the majority of people (outside of this god foresaken province) will buy into the scare mongering. Canadians just don't buy into that stuff.
About this being undemocratic power grab (its also the same kind of power grab Harper himself attempted to use when Paul Martin was Prime Minister (only he was too much a douche to be able to convice the other parties to join him). Look at it this way:
5,208,796 voted for the conservatives thats about 36% of the population.
3,633,185 voted for the liberals thats 26% of the population
1,379,991 voted for the Bloc (and while i think the seperatist agenda is hilariously outdated I do aprove of many of the Blocs social program and policy ideas) thats about 10% of the population
2,515,561 voted for the NDP thats about 18%
Now here is the definition of democracy (just in case you are reading this Stephen).
The doctrine that the numerical majority of an organized group can make decisions binding on the whole group
Now by my count the new coalition government is representing about 54% of Canadians who voted in the last election. Compared to Harper's 36%. Somehow I think that the coalition actually has the bigger mandate to run the country but maybe my math is wrong and I missed something.
The conservatives have been cutting important funding for the arts the enviroment and for the disenfranchised. They have put my ability to marry the man I love in jepordy. I am not fan of them (for the reocrd I am not fan of Dion either) and I don't want to see the Canada I love die a death of a thousand papercuts for this reason i am excited to see a shift in the politics of this country.
Monday, December 01, 2008
After my haircut debacle I hit the road and met up with Greg in Red Deer. Managed to listen to some new music I have had laying around (check out Roisin Murphy for some gay dance awesomeness and The Empire of the Sun for hipster dance yummyness).
The trip down was fairly uneventful despite the fact that we were running late and I had to get dressed in the passenger seat as Greg drove (it is stupidly hard to tie a tie in a tiny visor mirror). We arrived at the hotel Arts just in time for Greg's company Christmas party.
The hotel itself was very hip and cool. It was pretty damn swanky and I would definitely stay there again. I was a big fan of the decor and could totally see my place looking like that once i have the money to be tasteful.
The party was great. I ended up running into an acquaintance of my old roomie. We proceeded to have a great time and get fairly drunk in the process. They had a caricature artist and a lady doing angle readings (like a psychic). Greg and I did both and the angle reading was really acurate and surprisingly cool.
Here we are looking sorta drunk but classy.
Saturday we spent with my old roomie and his bf. Ended up at the Calgary Eagle that night and had a fantastic night of debauchery.
I am still recovering today.
I couldn't get into my regular stylist so I went over to First Choice haircuts (last choice would be more appropriate) a block from my place. I was seated and this older (50-60's) woman with badly bleached blond hair starts hacking away.
It was by far the worst haircut i have ever had in my entire life and additionally she managed to stab and scrape the back of my neck with her razor.
When i got home i had to take matters into my own hands and salvage what was left of my hair by taking the razor to it myself.
It turned out ok on the sides, kinda 80's the back (which i couldn't see however is a massacre). I even got a few compliments on it this weekend by some of teh gays. The moral of the story is dont let a little old lady named Mable near you with clippers.
Friday, November 28, 2008
Thursday, November 27, 2008
There is a super hot electrician cub that is putting in some new breakers and plugins. I get eye candy all day today.
Imma try and get some pics of him at some point.
Monday, November 24, 2008
The intro video is indeed one for the ages and begs the question, perhaps we should spent a litle less money on the umpteen usless add-on features and a bit more on a marketing budget and a camera with more thn 0.3 megapixles to take the promotional shots. But again i dont think they existed back in 1994 either.
The Flash intro is really one that needs to be seen to be believed:
Friday, November 21, 2008
From Terry M. I don’t know if it’s true, but I found it humorous in a geeky way.I love gay nerds.
Obviously taken from a chat session.
[hypnosis] 1. The human cell contains 75 MB of genetic information
[hypnosis] 2. A sperm 37.5 MB.
[hypnosis] 3. In a milliliter, we have 100 million sperms.
[hypnosis] On average, one ejaculation releases 2.25 ml in 5 seconds.
[hypnosis] Using basic math we can compute the bandwidth of the human male penis as:
[hypnosis] (37.5MB x 100M x 2.25)/5 = (37,500,000 bytes/sperm x 100,000,000 sperm/ml x 2.25 ml) / 5 seconds = 1,687,500,000,000,000 bytes/sec = 1,687.5 TerraBytes/sec
[Jck_true] DoS attack!!!
[hypnosis] a bukkake would probably be a DDoS then
[hypnosis] 11 men would give 17 petabytes/sec
Thursday, November 20, 2008
A couple of weeks ago (this post) she asked me if I had a boy friend. We had a bit of a chat mostly with her asking WHYYYYYYYYY?
Well today I called her to book a time for me to come over to help put up decorations. All i have left this week is Saturday during the day so Greg would be coming over to help as well.
I mentioned this to her and she got all emotional.
Here were her list of statements and questions:
Why are you doing this?Then she proceeded to repeat the above questions in random order. There was only so much I could say while at work but I gave mostly one word answers and solid statements like "that is just the way it is and always has been".
What happend to you?
This is still going on?
You sure you wont change your mind?
Does your Mother know?
What did she say?
I bet she is not happy?
Aren't you worried about getting AIDS?
Oh why oh why?
Maybe next year you will change your mind?
Please change your mind for me?
I am soo worried about this.
Does your Dad know?
What does he think?
I was doing pretty well till the AIDs statement. It made me realize that I have a big educational job ahead of me when it comes to my older relatives.
What is heartwarming from this whole exchange is the amount she was genuinely concerned for my well being. Her intentions are good I know, but I can't help feeling a little frustrated.
Why does every step have to be so much god damn work, like I don't have enough on my plate.
Wednesday, November 19, 2008
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
Monday, November 17, 2008
I just could not stop my brain. I used to have nights like that back when my ocd was really bad in university but they have been rare the past few years, usually showing up when I am super stressed. I am not super stressed however so I am a little confused as to why this is happening now.
I feel off somehow. I need to realign my chi or something.
Saturday, November 15, 2008
Friday, November 14, 2008
This is something I have written and thought about increasingly over the last few years. The maturing of social networking sites and the proliferation of living news aggregators (bloggers) have really allowed gays all over the world to connect. More so now than ever I feel like we are a community connected using this fantastic series of tubes ;)
This interconnectivity both anonymous, intimate and instantaneous has made it increasingly hard to ignore the things that are occurring to our brothers and sisters out there. From gays being hunted down and slaughtered in Iraq to a gay bashing in Ottawa; these events in past times would have been likely just slipped into obscurity. Now these events become part of our daily news feeds. Instead of hearing about that drag queen that was beaten up outside the local gay bar from friends or even more rarely the local news media, we can learn about all of the things (both good and bad) happening to the people in our global community all day every day delivered by Queers for Queers.
Its not that the screams for help are getting louder it is just that they are multiplying by the thousands rising in a crescendo and becoming harder to avoid with each passing day.
For 20 years we have been separating ourselves by age, HIV status, pant size, and the presence of facial hair. These subcultures and schisms have led to the fact that many of us under 30's have very little insight into our gay history or the tragedy and trailblazers that have allowed us the freedoms we currently enjoy. Having bloggers like joe.my.god and rex wockner (to name a few of many) have given us millennial gays a historical and often heartbreaking perspective that just was not reasonably culturally accessible even 5 years ago.
It wasn't that this my generation of Queers is lazy or uninterested we had the tools and increasingly the information we just lacked a universal cause, something that would piss us off enough to unite us.
Proposition 8 crystallized all of these elements and for the first time in my lifetime, I am having lengthy conversations about activism and politics with my peers. My generation has had it fairly easy up until now. We have lived in fairly tolerant times. It is one thing to be attacked by some douchebag on Fox news who has no affect on my life, it is another thing entirely to see the rights of 18000 of your brothers and sisters stripped away in front of you.
The mormon church has woken us up and in the long run they will learn to regret it after all no one fucks with our Ellen and gets away with it.
Thursday, November 13, 2008
Bill our vp is siding with me he has seen the level of the work they had done. I am still super frustrated.
The first one went really well. The other one is happening as I type this. Why am I not in it?
Good question imaginary audience, let me explain.
We are having some massive difficulties with our developer. This was my first big development project and the company we contracted out is not filling there end of the deal. Fingers are starting to be pointed. Today was supposed to be a meeting between me our vp and the ceo of the dev company. It turns out that the devs don't want me there.
I know they are going to try and pin the blame on me for something. I am not worried about what they are going to say, more annoyed at they had the gall to do that and that things have gotten this bad?
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
All owners in my condo complex are going to have to pay a 10 grand levey over the next five years. Additionally my condo fees are going to be going up. Money is going to be very tight for the next while.
I managed to learn adobe after effects and create this from scratch in 4 days for a client. Granted I worked like 80 hours that week on it.
I had a fantastic Halloween. Greg went as doggy-style and i went as Eor from Winnie the pooh in a 5 year olds costume (it was tiiiight).
Ryan and Jim my old roomates and Andrew threw a surprise party for me last weekend. They invited a ton of people that I don't get to see very often. It was amazing! It definitely picked up my spirits. I have such a fantastic group of friends.
Big things are happening at work. The next few months are going to be crazy.
Ok I am pooped I will make the effort to post every day for the rest of the week.
Tuesday, November 04, 2008
First of all I have a major hate on for splash pages. It makes no sense to put up a wall between you and your customers. It is rare that there is ever a good reason for a splash page.
Splash pages should be used in these rare occasions to elicit some sort of emotional connection or deliver a specific message (usually in flash).
Now I am not sure that this will elicit any kind of emotional reactions from anyone other than someone with a fish fetish so ultimately having a large splash page of a fish humping a rock is not so good.
On second thought perhaps an aquarium store should be advertising to fish fetishists, its easy money.
Check out the full site here.
Wednesday, October 29, 2008
Instead check out this blog i stumbled upon. These ladies remind me of her. Funny and about as real as you can get.
I am unable to go to Kelowna for her funeral Thursday as I simply cannot get time off work (as it is I will likely be here very late tonight and tomorrow.
As for how I am doing with everything crashing down the last week or two all i can say is that these two words are getting me through.
Thursday, October 23, 2008
She asked if thats the way it was going (in reference to me being gay) and if i was still looking for a girlfriend and she threw out a how did this happen? for good measure.
I told her that nothing happened and this was just the way things are.
I knew this was going too smoothly.
On Monday morning, Oct 20th, at 8:02, my friend DALTYN called his office from home to say that he was heading downtown to pick up a copy of his Teaching Certificate from Alberta Education located at 10044 108 Street and thatIf any of my albertan readers know anything or see anything please contact the police as soon as possible.
he would be right in to work afterwards. He never made it to AB Ed and has not been seen since then. Daltyns' vehicle is also missing. It is a BRIGHT YELLOW FORD ESCAPE SUV , Alberta Lic Plate BAB 737. It has a
rainbow cowboy on the back windshield and a little yellow happy ball cowboy ball on the antenna. The police are investigating his disappearance and has stated that if they do not find Daltyn within the first 48 hours, any chances of finding him are slim. They do suspect foul play. The police have a Canada wide all points bulletin on
Our only chance of aiding this investigation is finding Daltyn's vehicle. At least it would be a start in locating him or the animals who did something to him. Please ask people to keep an eye out for his vehicle. Should anyone locate the vehicle, DO NOT APPROACH, BUT DIAL 911. I would hate to have yet someone else put themselves in harms way.
Please, if you could check the streets, alleys, parking lots, parkades, that you come across in your travels. Some people have even suggested that his vehicle could already be outside of Alberta. Also, if you could please pass this email on to everyone you know. The more eyes looking for this vehicle, the better!
Thank you for any assistance you can provide for all of Daltyns friends who miss him and are hoping for his safe return to us.
Monday, October 20, 2008
This has been building for the past three years and I was glad to get it off my chest and I think she was as well. When it came to what we should do about the gap between us she basically said she didn't think we need to do anything. I was willing to try but I think that speaks volumes about how far apart we are on everything.
Things change people change and as such relationships even the ones we see as the bedrocks of your social network can rapidly change. I think all the changes in the last few months have really gotten me to a place where I can react to change in a far healthier manner than I used to.
I will cherish the friendship we had but I won't be mourning its loss or reduction.
On the plus side Greg and I had a couple of new friends come up from red deer. They are a great couple and we had a fantastic time together.
Friday, October 10, 2008
October is apparently Gay history month (who knew?!?!?!?) and one of my favorite blogs has been reporting daily run downs of important gay events that occurred on that day. So go check out Steve & Warren's blog and learn something new!
Tuesday, October 07, 2008
Friday, October 03, 2008
These hints have been dealt out by one of my fav apple blogs 9to5mac.
Clue number 1. MacBook update event in a few weeks 'all about the Brick'
Clue number 2. This picture featuring a laser:
Clue number 3. A picture of a solid brick of aluminum.
So there are like a million rumors floating around about wireless docks, wireless power and all sorts of other nonsense. Unfortunately the solution to the riddle is much simpler. The new macbook chassis will be etched out of a solid single piece of aluminum eliminating seems screws and a whole bunch of waste and will possibly feature laser etching customization.
Just my prediction.
I think this makes me a tragic fanboy.
Wednesday, October 01, 2008
Monday, September 29, 2008
It was one of those weekend's where everything happens all at once. Saturday morning Ryan and Jim officially moved out. It was a bit emotional for everyone, very hard seeing them go. I am going to miss those guys so much. I am looking forward to setting up my home gym in the spare bedroom.
After they headed to Calgary it was time to get ready for the big birthday party. I had been a bit worried that it was going to be lame as so many people could not make it. It was still a great turn out of about 15 people. We partied at the condo then at boots then at the new gay bar play. It was 5 am before I went to bed. I will be posting some pics soon.
The next morning was a little rough. I was not a as hungover as I probably deserved to be. I was just really tired. Greg and I had to go to a big family BBQ at my aunt an uncle's place for my cousin and great aunt's and my birthdays. Now up until yesterday only about half of my family at the event knew i was gay this was the first time I had ever brought a boyfriend to meet them.
It went incredibly well Greg was a big hit. My Baba even went as far to say that he was "quite the catch". Which i thought was pretty adorable.
All in all a fantastic weekend! Today Greg is taking me out to dinner and then we are going to Ikea!
Should make for a great birthday!
Friday, September 26, 2008
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Organized religion is the root of all evils in this world.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
I can see why being conservative is alluring to many gays. To be conservative in many ways is a fight for the status quo, for normalcy. Being normal and fitting is almost hardwired into the human brain. Of course to those of us attracted by the siren call of traditionalism are usually the ones that cant find that sense of normalcy in the gltb community. These are also in my mind the people that talk disparagingly about feminine guys and transgendered individuals.
Is is some sort of self loathing? A need to be better than others to prevent yourself from being a victim? Or just plain ignorance to the reality around us? I don't know and i doubt I ever will.
I bring this all up becuase of the growing scandal surrounding Toronto conservative candidate Chris Reid. For those of you who don't know about the story, Chris was forced to resign his candidacy after some really offensive remarks were recovered from his blog (click here for a the full story).
I have unfortunately had contact numerous times with Chris through a few political facebook groups. Rest assured the quotes in the article are not even his most offensive work. You see Chris is one of the sad trolls that hops from group to group (usually pro gay or anti conservative groups) to explain to everyone in the most condescending inflammatory way possible that ultra conservatism will be what saves the gays.
Chis is whats called ironically enough a "flamer (see item number 2 in the definition)". I almost doubt he is actually gay but more likely a conservative robot (conbot) sent from the a fascist future. You know the kind that spouts off misquoted facts from studies that do not exist or were not peer reviewed in order to prove his point. Chis is fantastically good at being a flamer (which is really what the conservatives are great at) and that's changing a political non-partisan debate into an argument about right and left policies.
Despite all of this I do feel bad for Chris in a way. I don't think a conbot like him will every be happy with himself or find acceptance anywhere truly until he realizes that the normalcy he is looking for will never be found in the grounds of conservatism. Maybe in another 50 years what he is searing for will be possible. Until that time however if your gay i can't see how you can be anything other than a radical, a liberal or an agent of change.
I think while we have had it better than we ever had the gay community is quickly forgetting the fight it took to get us here. Take Chris as an example, dont be a flamer be an activist for yourself and your community.
Monday, September 22, 2008
- The conservatives are buying another Canadian election and that terrifies me.
- Work has been less painful (may have a new software version by the end of the week which makes me very happy).
- I have started drawing again (i have not done hand drawing in what seems like years) I am very out of practice.
- I am trying hard to be motivated about something, anything at this point and am finding it very hard.
- Its even my birthday on the 29th and I am not that excited. Last year I had a massive party and it was a great time. This year it seems that most people are going to be out of town for it. I think a more low key affair is appropriate at this point.
- I think i am going to turn Ryan's room into a work out room/zen meditation room rather than buy a gym membership.
- My car is still broken, I am going to see how long i can put off fixing it at least until i get some birthday money.
- I have not been sleeping well these last few weeks and it is starting to wear me down.
Thursday, September 11, 2008
Yesterday however when i tried to load the share I got unexpected error 6602 from my mac saying basically it could not connect to the server share. Now random error code's are rare (for me at least) on macs so i started doing some research. Apparently a lot of people are having the same problem accessing SMB shares from the OSX. I tried the various workarounds posted and none of them worked at all.
Then i remembered that I had installed norton (symantec) ghost on my xp system yesterday while trying to create a bootable backup thumbdrive. I figured symantec being the peice of shit company that they are had something to do with the random loss of share access.
I did a system restore to Monday and voila! My shares are fully accessible. Now I am not sure how many people with will help but I know if fixed my problems
Fuck you symantec!
Wednesday, September 10, 2008
Both groups played some wicked new stuff.
The lead singer for Bloc party was cheeky charismatic and spot on with his vocals (despite the edmonton events center's shitty sound system). He even went along with it when a random guy stormed the stage and sang the chorus with him b4 he was tackled by security.
The night was exactly what i needed. Very cathartic to just get out there and rock out. All the tension i had from work and shit the last 2 weeks is gone. I feel refreshed and energized.
I was at the rail in front of the stage to the left and it was way too packed to get a good picture in the throbbing dancing moshing crowd. Since my pictures turned out like crap here are some video clips from last nights concert. Both are of new Shout out out out out songs.
Tuesday, September 09, 2008
So I am gonna head to it myself. Should be fun dancing like a fool by myself :D Its gonna be nice not having to worry about where the other person wants to stand or dance.
Pics to come.
Monday, September 08, 2008
Issue 75 is a culmination of all of the previous issues storylines. It truly is an epic series and possibly one of the best i have ever read.
The last batch of issues have been about the war of the fables against the adversary. It does not disappoint. I was worried for a while that the writer was going to resort to an after the fact narration for the whole telling of the war. This felt detaching and removed the reader from the intensity that would have been the war. Thankfully this plot device is not used much at all in issue 75 and it is full of fantastic twists and turns.
Do yourself a favor and start from issue number 1. You will be pleasantly surprised.
Sunday, September 07, 2008
It was a long time coming. After years of having nary a bear-related group or event in Edmonton, ... put things into motion to create a night out for furry men of Alberta. In March 2008, the first Beef Bear Bash took place at Boots Bar and Lounge, and it has been smooth sailing ever since.I am so happy with the way it turned out. This next BEEF party is going to be huge. We are looking at getting the bar to capacity (270) for the first time all year. Also check out the beefy stud on the cover that is my co-organizer Daren.
“We were at Boots complaining how nobody comes out, everyone in Edmonton seems to stay home. Everywhere else in Canada seems to have bear events, including smaller cities, so we decided to have our own,” recalled Granley. “We were totally elated that people showed up, and the feedback we got was so amazing. People were asking why it had taken so long for it to happen. It was... Continue to full article
Thursday, September 04, 2008
Here is the poster I worked my ass off on. It is the first time I have played with this style of vector art/ raster meld.
I really like it
Tuesday, September 02, 2008
I have never lived alone before so this is going to be an interesting experience for sure. The place is gonna be very quiet and boring I am thinking. This all happened so fast.
I have decided to put off finding a new roomate till after xmas. I wanna see how the whole living on my own thing goes for a while.
Wednesday, August 27, 2008
At the restaurant we were getting served by a very pretty tranny named Jessica. Which is odd because we were in a very straight senior friendly restaurant (yay for equal employment laws!). Now i knew she was a tranny only because my gaydar is very good. As she is serving us our meal my Baba says to her. "My you have such a deep voice!"
She smiled politley and quickly walked away.
I got some news yesterday when i got home from work. Ryan my roomie just found out he has a job interview in Calgary for teaching on thursday. If that goes well Ryan will be moving out of the condo on the weekend. Part of me wants to be happy for him finding a job but there is another part of me that wants him to stay.
Not only will I be loosing a great roomate. But him leaving will financially cripple me as I wont be able to replace him anytime soon with someone I can trust to live with. I may get a part time job that I already don't have time for to deal with that tho.
The big fear for me is that I will be loosing my best friend and social coordinator. I think we have a pretty good/fun life here and all that will go when he leaves. Mostly because if he leaves it wont be for 6 months it will likley be forever. In many ways ryan is like a hubby, we live together nag and argue with eachother and have no sex (sounds like marriage to me).
I know nothing good lasts forever but i was hoping it would last a little longer at least.
Tuesday, August 26, 2008
Sure enough though by the end of the day my throat was getting a little sore.
Last night I spent shivering under 3 blankets having awful dreams.
Now I am sore everywhere. Its like my dress shirt is made of sandpaper. It is kind of hard to describe.
The timing is really shitty Ryan and I were going to go to the YMCA for our first workout tonight. I am still gonna go but keep it really light as I am feeling a little dizzy.
This shit better clear up as it is Gay Camping this weekend!!
Monday, August 25, 2008
I went down to Red Deer for a change to spend time with Greg and meet the rest of his family. On friday we went and saw Tropic Thunder. It was pretty good and really damn offensive but the laughs more than made up for it. Plus Jack black's surprisingly large package was on display in some tight black undies for a good portion of the movie.
Saturday we went to the farmers market and then to a BBQ at his parents place. Other than an aphid infestation it was a lot of fun. His family is really down to earth and funny.
Sunday we went tubing down the Red Deer River. I had never been tubing before so it was quite the experience. I am lookin forward to doing it again soon!
The only down side of the weekend was that Greg's ex and friend Alfredo was visiting as well. I tried my best to get along with him but he made it very clear that he wanted nothing to do with me. He was always polite (other than a very firm handshake) but it seemed like i had a forcefield around me with a 20 foot radius. I know he is still in love with Greg but its anoying that he couldnt at least play nice.
Tuesday, August 19, 2008
That was until friday night. Thats where I saw the future Mr. Granley. His name is Dylan Armstrong. He is a Canadian shotputter and possibly the sexiest man alive. Poor guy missed a bronze medal this year by 1 cm. I have never followed shotput before but i will be now. Greg and I have decided that he can take one of the swimmers and I can take this one. Seems like a fair deal to me.
Monday, August 18, 2008
Starting with the super fuzzy/pixelated header image with a gradient fade out that does nothing to hide the edges of the image. In fact all the images are poorly rendered as if the designer was trying to make everything look foggy or dusty.
The horrible background tiles. The nav menu.
The other pages don't get much better. Lime green text mixed with bright red text. Poor chart design. The list goes on and on.Clearly the designer was going for that faded sepia look which i think is conceptually appropriate for the subject. The implementation of it leaves a lot to be desired. Ugg that text I cant get over it!
Check the site out here.
Basically we got screwed: the car didnt run till later, the store we wanted to get a gift certificate at stopped selling them and the other store did not open till much too late. One road we wanted to use to get over the river was closed and the other one was backed up because of a marathon then we could not find parking.
After that things went much smoother. We went to the fringe festival but couldn't find a show that would work with our schedual.
The fella and I had a pretty serious conversation about him moving to Edmonton. It is getting tougher and tougher on both of us when he leaves on sundays. I just worry as I don't want him quitting a job he really likes just to move closer to me.
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
He is working across the street from me now and figured it would be a good idea to go for lunch and catch up. We met on Monday. It was a nice meeting and surprisingly not catty at all. When we broke up he basically had told me I was immature and had no direction in my life.
I am really trying to let go of the things from my past that have harmed me in some way. I think the lunch meeting was a good way to reaffirm that I had moved past the petty things from before. There was no sarcasm no petty jabs. Just a nice catch up and some shop talk.
Time does indeed heal all wounds.
Tuesday, August 12, 2008
It was fantastic!
I talked to one of the VP's yesterday about the problems I was having with the amount of Technical support calls. We are now looking at getting a calls center to do first line support for the sites. This makes me very happy. I will need to create the solution documentation for the call center people but that should be fairly straightforward.
I also started working on my tattoo design. I have unknowingly been drawing a mandala as a tattoo since i was about 12. After doing some research I have found a a few actual manadalas to help me focus my design. I have always found Buddist philosphy appealing and last night I came accross this essay.
I have pulled this quote as being particulary relavent to me:
The modern mind is so plagued by the worries and concerns that society heaps upon us that any spare minute not working or sleeping is desparately filled with activities intended to help us forget about all the issues that disturb our inner peace.I think this is an important lesson to learn and I need to keep it in mind as I go through my day to day life.
The implication inherent in such behavior is that the troublesome issues in our lives are beyond the scope of our control, but in reality nothing could be further from the truth. Everything in your life, from a painful relationship to a demeaning boss to a frustrating weight problem, are all wholly connected to you.
Thursday, August 07, 2008
I don't know what is wrong with me today. I have been feeling under the weather and having strange dreams since i returned from gay camping.
Is there a male pms or am I just sleep deprived?
Friday, July 25, 2008
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Here is a clip of the guys on the awful fox news program redeye. They are hilarious as usual:
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
If you have not seen avatar, it is a mixture of martial arts, slapstick comedy, sci-fi and Buddhist philosophy. With fantastic production values and jaw dropping choreography avatar has long been my favorite show.
Do yourself a favor and check it out from the beginning. I will give my review of the finale on Saturday after Greg and I watch it.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
I have an ulcer.
Considering the alternatives I am really quite happy that this was the diagnosis. The additional bonus is it is a very small ulcer (that is apparently causing some sort of muscle spasm in my stomach).
My restricted diet is here to stay till i find out what sets the ulcer off (likely caffeine and alcohol).
I need to not work so much i think. More sex less work would be a better prescription than no booze and good food.
Also I worry too much about stuff. I need to relax more and stress less. I think I will be doing wii fit yoga more as well.
Monday, July 21, 2008
My Grandma's 80th birthday was lots of fun. It rained off and on all day for it but cleared up in time for the party. I managed to avoid all conflict for the most part however my retarded redneck family managed to drag me into an argument about global warming because the don't believe in it. I am a man with few buttons but when the environment one is pushed I just can't ignore it. 10 ignorant people versus 1 made for a tough argument so eventually I just gave up before the topic of politics or religion got dragged into it.
BEEF! was Saturday night and it was a huge success. Apparently about 30-40 people showed to the afternoon BBQ and we had an excellent turn out for the party at boots. About the same as last party in number. Its funny however that the crowd always seems to change at each one. The next party is going to be huuuuge.
I basically partied from 8 am to 330 am sunday morning. I am still a little pooped. I will be posting pictures over the next few days of the shenanigans.
I saw The Dark Knight in imax on sunday with Greg. The movie is spectacular and the acting was fantastic go see it on the big screen!!!
On an unrelated note I go to get my test results tommorow morning. I wasn't nervous about it till the Doctors office phoned me today. Now i have perpetual butterflys in my tummy. I will let you all know how it goes once i am out of the office.
Sunday, July 20, 2008
I see myself reflected in them and I am worried by what I see. Anxiety depression and food addiction combined with varying degrees of self loathing and a need to escape the family unit.
I have pretty much escaped the overbearing clutches of my very close knit family. “They suffocate because they care” should be on our family crest. Living in the city has afforded me a comfortable amount of distance and independence from the tribe. Not all of my relatives that shish to escape are that fortunate.
I feel i finally have the distance, and thanks to my no booze or good food anti ulcer diet, the clarity to see this family for what it is. So many of them are trying to live the lives that will make everyone else happy and I can see it is draining the life from some of them.
Long ago I realized that I had to stop living my life for my family. I had to put my happiness above theirs (which is very hard when you are brought up believing that family is everything). I have had two relatives in the last 4 hours vent to me about how living up to the families standards is causing them problems.
I couldn't provide them with much advice but i did say that making the conscious decision to live my life my way was the most freeing experience of my whole life.
I am blessed to have my family and thankful for the clarity to realize that being in the tribe doesn’t mean that my life and my happiness should ever be put at risk for it.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Now i know how those girls in top model feel. They ask you to wear ridiculous outfits ( hospital gown that took me 10 min to figure out) and then put you into multiple hilariously uncomfortable positions and make you hold them while they take pictures.
It was pretty comical. I didn't realize i would be wearing a gown so i didn't bother to wear underwear when i went. I spent most of the time on the table attempting to make sure my bits weren't dangling out.
Ill know my results some time next week.
Monday, July 14, 2008
I feel i have not really done any of the things i have wanted to get done. While it is most likely that this is an ulcer if it is something more serious then I have wasted so much time.
My co-worker Ann had these wise words for me "No one ever dies wishing they had worked more".
I have really tried to take that to heart. I am going to try to make a full effort to use more of the time given to me.
It took me a few days to process this which is why I wasn't posting. I'm back now and more focused than before. Things are clearer now.
While different than last year it was indeed a great time. There was plus 30 weather and not a cloud in the sky for the whole weekend. The cowboys were friendly (and hot) and other than the icy cold showers and the fact that most people think im a whore there was nothing really to ruin the mood.
Tuesday, July 08, 2008
I managed to see the doctor (he put me on prevacid sent me for a blood test and a stomach x-ray before I will know whats making me puke blood. I am hoping for something simple like gastritis or an ulcer and not stomach cancer).
Went for the blood test
Schedualed my stomach floroscopy.
Went for lunch with my mom.
Bought a new eco friendly rug for the living room.
Got some groceries.
Saw the optomitrist.
Looked at new glasses.
When something like a health issue that is out of my control happens I tend to overcompensate by getting a hell of a lot done and cleaning everything in sight.
While the condo is clean now thanks to a hearty effort by myself and the roomie I still don't feel better.
I keep thinking about the worst case senario.
What ifs do not make me happy.
Monday, July 07, 2008
One of the things that I realized at this years rodeo (pictures to be posted tomorrow) is that the community is small very small and it is easy to get "known". Now whether this prior knowledge is a good or bad thing I can't tell. What i can say is I am becoming increasingly uncomfortable with it.
There comes a time when you realize that stuff you post online really does have a life of its own. Your pictures your words have a way seeping into places you never expected and used for things you never intended. For the most part I am ok with it. It is the tradeoff you take for giving yourself a platform such as this to communicate your thoughts and feelings.
It is when this digital exposure gets extended into the real world that I get concerned. I had not even finished putting up my tent at the rodeo before I heard a holler from the group of older gentlemen next door.
"hey, arn't you famous?" Followed by some giggling and knowing looks.
"I think I know you from somewhere." Piped up one of the others.
I strolled up to them to see what they were talking about. They proceeded to hand me a copy of outlooks and a copy of gay Calgary magazines. Both of which I had pictures of me in my harness and undies from the last beef party. The guys next door ribbed me about it all weekend. Kept asking for a show. I know they were just doing it all in good fun but I have to admit im a bit torn about the attention.
Versions of the "hey i saw you in XXXXXXX" conversation happened like 6-7 times that weekend usually with people I was accquainted with or people I didn't know at all. The attention seeking famewhore in me loved it but the professional adult trying to build a career for himself was worried with the connotations that people were taking away from those photos.
I have decided that those things while more tangible than online activites are ultimatly the same. They only have power over you if you let them do so. I have bigger things to worry about than my reputation. Let them judge all they want I wont change because of it.
Combined with my love of fatty Ukrainian food and beer I never expected to have things running smoothly.
On friday after a night of very rich food and drinks i got ill. This is nothing new really though it had been about three months It happens that if i eat something like nachos with a beer or something deep fried i wake up at about 5 am with extreme nausea. This time there was blood however which is the second time this year that has happened.
I can't keep ignoring the problem and drinking a buckets worth of gaviscon every month wont fix it. I always used to joke that I would have an ulcer by the time i was 25 because i am such a stress case. Never did i honestly think that would actually be the case. I somehow feel like I am too young to be needing to go to the doctors for this. I know that's a silly concept as far younger people have had to deal with things a billion times worse. I am not used to being the sick one however and I dont like it.
I have a doctors appointment tomorrow my first real checkup in 4 years or so, hopefully they will be able to sort it out.
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
We were talking about who was going to go to the parade and my Mom asked "so will there.. will there like be, you know, normal people there?"
You could tell the second the word left her lips she knew what a retarded thing she just said. Her and my Dad immediately turned bright red. She began apologizing profusely while my dad scolded her by saying that is a stupid thing that he would expect to say and she should be smarter. She asked me not to tell anyone but how could I not!??!
I had my second dentist appointment in 2 days today. Now as some of you know i have a lot of anxiety tied into the dentist. Here is a good formula for hating going to the dentist
(1 After a bad experience getting a filling+ excruciating pain + 9 year old boy+ dad having an absolute panic attack in the middle of a root canal)= 10 year moratorium on dentist visits
10 year moratorium on dentist visits= 2 bloody one hour cleaning sessions + 6 fillings
(2 bloody one hour cleaning sessions + 6 fillings) + wisdom tooth extraction that goes horribly wrong due to freezing that does not work + a near trip to hospital due to damage caused by the surgery + not being able to eat anything for almost 2 weeks= HATING going to the dentist
I kind of hate how nervous I get when I go into those dens of pain.
My appointment yesterday went well. It was with a new dentist in my building. The dentist was an old guy with an awesome bedside manner i almost immediately liked him. This in itself is strange because for the most part i feel that dentists as a species should be feared more than the love child of the Satan + Joan Rivers. They gave me some meds for my infected wisdom tooth. The meds are already working great and I can almost start opening my jaw again without pain (yay for solid food!). They suggested I come back for a cleaning since it had been 2 years since my last visit to a dentist.
The cleaning went fantastically well and they said that other than my wisdom tooth needing removal my mouth is in great shape!
Its taken almost 25 years but i finally had a good experience at the dentist.
Monday, June 23, 2008
Pretty much all that was getting me through last week was the knowledge that the rodeo (and my one real vacation of the summer) was coming in a few days.
Then i started noticing my back tooth hurting. In the 4 days since it started to hurt it has turned into a full blown infection. It hurts almost as much as when I got two of my wisdom teeth out. I cant open my jaw much and sleeping and eating has been difficult. I managed to talk my way into a 1 pm appt with a dentist in my building this afternoon. I just want my mouth to feel better so i can be 100% for the rodeo. I hope to god they don't have to pull it out.
Expect more posts this week.
Monday, June 16, 2008
Then I stumble across this article. We live in a very strange creepy world. The comments under the article are pretty hilarious though.
Why isn't anyone more concerned that random severed feet are showing up in isolated places throughout BC???
Thursday, June 12, 2008
They conveniently leave out the fascist things that it implements.
Yes ladies and Gents big brother is watching and i think for once we have them worried. Though I must admit I am a little creeped out by how fast their email came its not like this blog is getting thousands of hits a day. I think I need to put up more gay porn to fuck with the conservative douchebags that are probably reading this right now.
Please please use the links in the post below to fight for your privacy and rights as a Canadian. I have included some content from Michael Geist's blog to help expose some of the finer details of this bill and how it will affect you.
1. As expected, Prentice has provided a series of attention-grabbing provisions to consumers including time shifting, private copying of music (transfering a song to your iPod), and format shifting (changing format from analog to digital). These are good provisions that did not exist in the delayed December bill. However, check the fine print since the rules are subject to a host of strict limitations and, more importantly, undermined by the digital lock provisions. The effect of the digital lock provisions is to render these rights virtually meaningless in the digital environment because anything that is locked down (ie. copy-controlled CD, no-copy mandate on a digital television broadcast) cannot be copied. As for every day activities like transferring a DVD to your iPod - those are infringing too. Indeed, the law makes it an infringement to circumvent the locks for these purposes.Scary times we live in. If anyone needs a sample letter to send to an MP email me and I can provide one for you.
2. The digital lock provisions are worse than the DMCA. Yes - worse. The law creates a blanket prohibition on circumvention with very limited exceptions and creates a ban against distributing the tools that can be used to circumvent. While Prentice could have adopted a more balanced approach (as New Zealand and Canada's Bill C-60 did), the effect of these provisions will be to make Canadians infringers for a host of activities that are common today including watching out-of-region-coded DVDs, copying and pasting materials from a DRM'd book, or even unlocking a cellphone. The liability for picking the digital lock is up to $20,000 per infringement.
While that is the similar to the U.S. law, the exceptions are worse. The Canadian law includes a few limited exceptions for privacy and security, yet Canadians can't actually use these exceptions since the tools needed to pick the digital lock in order to protect their privacy are banned. In other words, check the fine print again - you can protect your privacy but the tools to do so are now illegal. Dig deeper and it gets worse. Under the U.S. law, there is mandatory review process every three years to identify new exceptions. Under the Canadian law, its up to the government to introduce new exceptions if it thinks it is needed. Overall, these anti-circumvention provisions go far beyond what is needed to comply with the WIPO Internet treaties and represents an astonishing abdication of the principles of copyright balance that have guided Canadian policy for many years.
3. The other headline grabber is the $500 fine for private use infringement. This will be heralded as a reasonable compromise, but check the fine print. Canadian law already allows a court to order damages below $500 per infringement, so the change may not be as dramatic as expected. Moreover, the $500 fine may well be offset by the new sources of much larger liability as Canadians face $20,000 per infringement for transferring music from a copy-protected CD to their iPod. Finally, it is already arguably legal to download sound recordings in Canada. Under the proposal, there are exceptions for uploading or posting music online (ie. making available) and even the suggestion that posting a copyright-protected work to YouTube could result in the larger $20,000 per infringement damage award.
4. The ISP provisions are precisely as expected with a statutory notice-and-notice system. However, check the fine print. The role of the ISP may be undermined by the Anti-Counterfeiting Trade Agreement, which the government trumpets in its press release.
5. The education community received several provisions that are largely gutted by the fine print. For example, library materials can be distributed in electronic form, but must not extend beyond five days. In other words, it turns librarians into locksmiths. Moreover, there is an Internet exception that educators wanted but it does not apply for any works that are either password protected or include a notification that they cannot be used. In other words, online materials that are available under a Creative Commons license are fair game (as they are already), but most everything else is still potentially subject to a restriction. This was precisely what many feared - rather than pursuing the far superior expansion of fair dealing, the education community got a provision that does little to enhance classroom learning.
I'll have more to say soon, but the takeaway is that the DMCA provisions are worse than the U.S. and the consumer exceptions riddled with limitations as the government promotes a strategy of locking down content and launching lawsuits against Internet users.
For a long time it looked like they were going to repeal the legislation. Now it looks like they are trying to slip it in. This CBC article gives a good summary of the current situation.
I strongly suggest that any of you who have ever downloaded anything please write to your local MP about how bad this legislation is for Canadians. Here are some resources I got from the facebook group (which is 41000 strong).
There will be considerable work in the weeks and months ahead. The starting point, however, is to write immediately to Industry Minister Jim Prentice and your local MP to let them know that Canadians won’t be deceived by attempts to tinker with a few new consumer rights while leaving the DMCA provisions intact. A quick email or letter (no stamp needed) is all it takes:
Industry Minister Jim Prentice - Prentice.J@parl.gc.ca, Minister.Industry@ic.gc.ca
Prime Minister Stephen Harper - firstname.lastname@example.org
Finding Your Local MP - <http://www2.parl.gc.ca/Par
More details on the government’s plans at http://www.michaelgeist.ca
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
All that has changed since I got my zune a week or so ago. I now am listening to music all the time rediscovering old songs I loved and new bands I have dl'ed and not had a chance to give a solid listen to.
I am in love all over again with music. So far my new favs are Shiny toy guns and Nicky Van She.
So far my experience with the zune has been really positive (I even have it running on my mac through parallels I will do a how to post a little later) i think my fav thing so far however is being able to take my music (and the latest Venture Brothers episodes along with me) everywhere.
Music how i missed you!
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Tuesday, June 10, 2008
Monday, June 09, 2008
Specifically the original Doctor Venture:Hes hot tho right? I'm not a freak am I? I have heard of straight guys being turned on by Jessica Rabbit this is just the same thing, right?
Thursday, June 05, 2008
Wednesday, June 04, 2008
I made an awesome homemade peanut satay stirfry ate fudgescicles (yes thats plural) and watched the season premier of The Venture Brothers and episode 14 and 15 of Avatar. Both were totally fantastic and work the month and months and months I have been waiting for episodes. Amazing one liners and action.
Now the roomie and I are watching so you think you can dance.
Mission couch potatoe accomplished!
So the company contacted me through this here blog and asked if i would be interested in participating in one of the campaigns. I had a bit of a dilemma should I participate get my free swag and sell out or should I just keep trucking along as if nothing happened. My curiosity about the program and my love of free gadgets got the better of me this time.
As of last Thursday I am a proud owner of a brand spankin new 8 gig microsoft zune mp3 player.
This works out well for me as it matches my new black macbook perfectly and gives me an alternative to using the god awful itunes application. It is about the same size as an older version of the ipod nano the but the colour screen is bigger. The other bonus is i can avoid joining the ipod cult.
I am still running it through its paces and deciding what I like (integrated radio fm tuner) and what I don't like I will be giving a full review on the whole thing later in the week.
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