Thursday, April 28, 2011

It gave me chills

You need to read this blog post by an out lesbian in Syria.  I totally teared up. Words have power and so do we.

Wednesday, April 27, 2011

iTunes Survey

Blatantly stolen from the fella
How many songs: 5349
Sort by song title:
First Song: À Nu (Pom Pom)- Big Sugar
Last Song:  57821 (Feat. Deep Cotton) - Janelle Monáe

Sort by time:
Shortest Song: R.K. Intro - Our Lady Peace
Longest Song: Easy (Skitsnygg Remix) - Dragonette

Sort by artist:
First Artist: MIA-roder (Kavinsky vs MIA)- A-Trak
Last Artist: Because The Night - 10000 Maniacs 
Sort by album:
First Album: Absolution - Muse
Last Album: 604 - Ladytron

Top Three Most Played Songs:
1. Mer du Japon (Remix by The Teenagers) - Air - 23
2. We are the people - Empire of the Sun - 21
3. This Boy's in love - The Presets - 21

Search …

Death: 184
Life: 78
Love: 338
Hate: 9
You: 659
Sex: 46

My Summer Look

I just received two new sets of ultra cheap prescription sunglasses.  I heart Zennioptical soo much.

Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Adventures in co-dependancy

The fella is out of town at a conference. I think this is only the third time we have been apart for more than a day since we moved in together. I am trying to not be a super lame but i do miss having him to cuddle with.
I have been super productive however so thats something.  I went and saw Scream 4 yesterday with a buddy.   I am a huge fan of the scream franchise and I felt this was an honest and fun re-visit to woodsboro.  Two things bothered me.

  1. Once the villain is exposed they go on a lengthy rant that felt like it was written by an old dude about them damn kids these days. It could have been shortened or cut entirely and I still would have loved the movie.
  2. Courtney Cox's face is starting to look like Lisa Rinna.  She is brilliant in the movie I love her character buuut you can see she has had so much filler put in around her mouth its painful to watch such a stunning woman do that to her face rather than age gracefully.  I didn't notice it so much when we watch cougar town but I have a feeling she gets more say on angles and shot styles there.  Neve looks as good as ever and her face moves naturally (maybe she should refer Courtney to her doc).
Other than that I can say as a fan go check it out.  Its worth it for the nostalgia factor alone.

Monday, April 11, 2011

Lost without a muse

Things are still going well for me.  I have been working on my website for my company and trying to figure out how to present what I do.  I am running into a road block because much of the services I am offering I don't have professional credentials for. 

I have always been a bit of a journeyman picking up skills as I needed depending on the project.  Need to learn flash action script over the course of a week? Done! Need to learn how to do advance effects for a video project that has to be done in a few days? Done!  My whole career reads like a list of crazy demands and deadlines.

I have always prided myself on my ability to pick up new skills and abilities.  In my mind with hard work and the internet almost any skill can be acquired.  The problem is I never get a chance to master any of it. 

A though has been lurking between coherent thoughts.  Its like that thing you see out of the corner of your eye and when you turn to look at it it is gone.

I was watching an online illustrator tutorial and it blew me away how well the guy played the software like a piano.  An orchestra of skill creating some fantastic graphics.  He did things that I never even knew was possible.  It made me feel like a rank amateur.

Suddenly that had been hiding on my periphery for so long burst forward.

I have a hell of a lot to learn if I am going to make a living doing any of the things I have been planning.

I am really good at a lot of technical things but being self taught means I am doing so much the hard way or worse the wrong way.  I always felt that technology could be the bridge between raw talent and mastery.  I think maybe in 10 years that may be the case but today for me the divide seems to be growing in every area I try to work in.

Part of it is my own professional ADD.  I never stick with projects long enough to finish them.  The justanotherepicfable site has been a project for 10 years at least and I am no closer to releasing new material today than I was 5 years ago.  I used to draw almost every day and today I couldn't even manage to draw a nose.  I have been using technology as a lazy excuse for not practicing and that won't work anymore. 

I have been pondering taking an online course or two to help me master some of these handyman skills.  Or maybe even taking a few legitimate programming courses so I can start tying together my creative skills with my business plan. 

Back when I was young a lot of my creativity was a driving mechanism to help me escape how unhappy I was.  Now that I am happy I need to figure out a way to ignite the flame without making myself miserable again.

For now I am going to try and draw something every day on paper so I can start building up my artistic ability again.  I need to rediscover my style.  

Saturday, April 09, 2011

Stephen Harper Sucks and here is why

This is better than any list i could put together.  How these neoconservative assholes have stayed in power this long blows my mind.

What pisses me off even more is they have tried to make coalition governments look like a bastardization of democracy.  Personally i think proroguing parliament is a far worse offence than finding common ground with another democratically elected politician.

They want to turn this country into the US circa 2003.
No thanks cons. No thanks.

Friday, April 08, 2011

Walkin on sunshine

No I am not all fucked up on whippits (yes I am a terrible person for laughing at that I know). 
Spring has hit edmonton with full force.  The snow and massive lakes that form on the sidewalks and streets is starting to recede and the sun is staying out later and later.

Yesterday after a very productive day at work I walked in the sun to boot camp and we got to work out outside in the river valley which was super awesome.  I felt a little weird about being out in public in my tight workout clothes doing squats on the trail but getting some fresh air was great.  The group did get a few honks and sex stares as we worked out  (men are such pigs) but I think that had to do with the 15 girls in skin tight lycra bending over and not my luscious fuzzy man booty.  

Yes I am the only guy in the group but that doesn't mean its a work out program for women.  Just because its run by women and filled with women and we focus mostly on butt and leg exercises doesn't... hmmmm maybe I am in a ladies class.  At least I get the lockeroom to myself.  Some eye candy for me once in a while would be nice.

On my walk home I was pleased to see the sun was not only still out but shining so brightly that I had to wear my sunglasses.  Winter has this way of taking things from you, you didn't even know you were missing until they come back again in spring.  

I was welcomed home by the fella cooking delicious tacos with home made guacamole. Then  we had some friends over to watch this weeks drag race.   I don't know about you guys but this season has really been enjoyable.  Alexis who i started out hating has really picked it up the last 4 episodes.  Its almost like its been the Alexis show lately and I am fine with that.  I think its going to be her verses Raja in a bitchy cat fight to the death.   

Things are good I am busy but really happy. Sometimes I feel like I only come on here to bitch and moan so I am going to try and make an effort to share more of the good because right now there is a lot of good to share!

Thursday, April 07, 2011

Bear aftermath part 2

Well because we are bad at math and we had some extra donations after the event the total final tally we raised for queer prom was $1210 dollars!  I cant thank everyone enough for coming out. Thanks again to the staff at the Junction, Gay Calgary and Down Under and all the guys who came out to support us!

Monday, April 04, 2011

Bear aftermath

Had an absolute blast at BEEF on saturday.  We had a capacity crowd at the junction and managed to raise $1058 dollars for Youth Understanding Youth's Queer Prom.  Nothing better than lots of shirtless hot bears  raising money for a good cause!

This totally blew away my expectations.

Had some great volunteers that really helped take off the pressure from my micromanaging.  I can't thank them enough for the help they provided!  

I am still totally wiped out and loosing my voice.  Its gonna be a quiet week I think.  Need to recharge and recover.

Its time to start planning the next one!

Friday, April 01, 2011

Its coming!! BEEF SPRING BEAR BASH! 2011

I have been super swamped with work and extra curriculars this last week.  Getting the fundraiser set up for Youth Understanding Youth's Queer Prom and all the other details has taken far more work than expected.  We are expecting a capacity crowd so hopefully we can raise some cash for the kids and have a great time.  
Check out the facebook event here.

I am expecting a house full of cubs this weekend. As always I am not to sure where we are going to fit everyone into our humble abode but I am sure we will manage.  I still have a ton of cleaning that needs to be done before the boys get here.  

I have so much left to do I have decided to take the afternoon off (which happens to coincide with the fella's afternoon off) and get some running around and cleaning done.  Then its off to my Dad's birthday and then back for carnal desires at flash. 

I may need a weekend from my weekend by the time sunday rolls around!