Monday, August 22, 2011

You Did Good Jack. You will be missed.

Jack Layton leader of the NDP and fearless advocate for canadian minorities and workers has passed away after a battle with cancer.

The most well liked canadian political leader and the one with the best facial hair :D will be impossible to replace.  It feels like a punch to the stomach today.  He was such a good man.

Rest in peace Jack you did an amazing service to your country and to the world.  Thank you for your service.

Thursday, August 18, 2011

Praise the lord and pass the ammunition

Every morning I pass the @edmontonsun newsstand and I wince.  

If you were to judge Edmonton based solely on the headlines of the sun you would think we had fallen into total violent anarchy.

I had a much loved social studies teacher in high school once tell me that people should only read the Sun for the stereo ads. Reading the alarmist bombastic headlines every morning as I walk to work I am realizing more and more how correct he was.  

If it wasn't the fear mongering and consistent misrepresentation of life in this city, its the blatant editorializing of the news.  More and more it seems to me that the sun is not a paper about news in Edmonton but a publishing arm of a conservative think tank.   

I understand that all papers and journalists have a political bias of some sort but few are as blatant as the sun.  After the chief of police put forth his plan to deal with the perceived spike in homicides (fuelled by sloppy reporting and punditry which has been debunked by this great site here and here) they splashed a message on the front page under the headline about how they had doubts about the plan.  (Note: The Edmonton Journal has not been much better on crime reporting front here so it is not just the Sun at fault). Now editorialize all you want but you should keep that shit on the editorial or blog pages not splashed in bold on the front page. 

I have a theory that this is all part of a neo-conservative effort to engender a culture of fear in us.

Michael Moore touched on this way back when in his bowling for columbine documentary.   He looked at the difference in gun culture and deaths in the US compared to Canada and then in the differences between how the news media in the two countries talk about crime.  Canadians it seemed were missing that critical element of fear.  

To modern conservatives fear is a critical element of political discourse.  Fear creates an Us Vs. Them mentality.  It is that mentality that is at the heart of conservatism today.  One of the cons major talking points in the last election was about how they were going to get tough on crime even though crime rates had already been dropping steadily for decades.  Talking about it makes some people think its a problem because no one is going to go to the trouble to look up the actual statistics and most newsrooms are too lazy to break it down for people.  

As a gay man who has been constantly vilified and accused of trying to destroy Canadian society and ruin the Canadian family by conservatives I am intimately familiar with this Us Vs. Them tactic.  Thankfully Canada didn't fall for it last time and I hope we do not fall for it again.

So here you have conservative politicians fabricating a problem to work a political angle just like it did with the gays.  Then magically the conservative newspapers start filling in that story constantly every day with such vigour and hyperbole that anyone would be crazy to disagree with it.  It just smells fishy to me.

Now I am not saying this is some big conspiracy by the right to terrify us but I will say the current leaders of the cons have taken a lot of moves from the playbook of the republicans in the states.   These are people who love power and a population that is terrified will almost always be willing to give up more than they should for protection.  Just look at the UK right now and the US after 911.   

I feel this culture of fear will keep getting pushed down our throats until it becomes an every day part of our lives.  Lock the doors grab the guns and your bible there are roving gangs out there and pray to Stephen Harper that he can save us from it all.

Monday, August 15, 2011


I don't know why the universe is trying to blind me in my right eye but this shit really needs to stop. I am going to just wear goggles everywhere I think.

On the way to work a bird managed to shit right in my eye.  The guy must have been a sniper as it managed to shit right between my glasses and my eye.  A one in a million shot.  I was too far to run home and had to use my sock to wipe up my face.

I though someone threw an egg at me there was just so much of it.

This is the same eye that went zombie almost a year ago and has been irritated and angry every since.

Seriously universe lay off the eye.

Wednesday, August 10, 2011

Music time

What happens when you mix a fucking awesome Canadian band with one of the best electronic artists around?

This.   Which also happens to be a personal anthem ;).

Tuesday, August 09, 2011

Down the rabbit hole

Things are a bit weird for me right now.  After winning the battle with my anxiety for so long I can feel it creeping back up into my day to day life. 

Its small things taken separately would be un-noticable.  Each one a small chip in my armour that I use to get through life.  Little things like:
  • Having to go back and check to see if I locked the front door or closed the patio door.
  • Partying too hard and ignoring my own limits.
  • Trouble sleeping.
  • Imaginary illnesses.  I keep worrying my eyes are getting infected to the point where I was carrying around polysporin eye drops (not to use but "just in case" just to make me feel better).
  • General short temperedness.
  • Random talking to myself (this is the worst one and can be so embarrassing). 
  • Additionally my stutter seems to be popping up more and more.
There has been a lot happening in my life.  Fighting with my neighbours, the bear party fund raiser, crazy work adding on a ton of responsibilities, home renos, mexico trip disasters and weddings are all starting to weigh me down. 

I don't know how much of this is related to the jellyfish venom.  I do know it messed up my body significantly for a little bit.  I just know I am slipping a bit back to how I was in university.  It is not a good feeling.  

I am not sure what I can do get back on solid ground.  I am hoping working out more will help and some r & r this weekend.   Greg has been so good about it and I really don't want him to have to put up with a super anxious ocd boyfriend for much longer.