Friday, May 17, 2013

Beef Presents: The Canadian Bear Weekend

Alberta's biggest bear event has grown! After the huge success of Bearacchus Bear Weekend in Calgary we have partnered up with the best in bear entertainment to bring you the Canadian Bear Weekend!

A full weekend's worth of events coinciding with Edmonton's Pride Festival
A supportive host hotel with discounted room blocks reserved for event members only. It will also host two of the events.
Alberta's first Bearracuda dance party featuring DJ Matt Consola! 

Friday June 7 -8 PM - BEEF Bear Pride Underbear Party
We will kick off the Pride weekend with our notorious underbear party. The meat & greet will have great music featuring DJ Phon3hom3 and a wet underwear contest. Come dressed in your favorite underwear fetish gear or jock, whatever that may be (no frontal nudity allowed)! @Lockeroom Bar, 11834 Kingsway Avenue NW, Edmonton.

Saturday June 8 - 11 AM -Edmonton Pride Parade
Join the Fellowship of Alberta Bears on our very first parade float or come cheer us on during the pride parade. Spots are limited so if you are interested please contact us.

9 PM -Bearracuda
This super charged world class bear party will blow you away. Great music and the best bear and cub eye candy around! @ The Lockeroom Bar 11834 -Kingsway avenue N.W. Edmonton

Sunday June 9: 12 PM - 4 PM BEEF Bear Bust BBQ
Spend the last day of pride unwinding with the best BBQ Edmonton has to offer. Our beef is delicious and the food is great as well! Come and join us on the spacious back patio for an entire afternoon of good drinks good food and great company. @ The Mercury Room Patio, 10575 114 Street NW Edmonton.

A portion of the profits from the weekend will be going to the Edmonton Pride Centre and the charities of the ISCWR. Booking and ticket details on the website.

Wednesday, May 08, 2013

I haven't gone.

I have been in survival mode for the last 6 months maybe longer.
The pressure at work has been insane.  The BEEF Bear Bash events have become 10 times more work to organize and the house renovations are coming along at a slowed pace.

Creating things is not easy.  Building anything is a battle.  It is an act of sacrifice.

These are the things I tell myself when I don't bother to return a call, when I snap at someone or in those quiet times when waver between resenting everyone and everything around me and utter despair.

Creating things is not easy.  Building anything is a battle.  It is an act of sacrifice.

These are the excuses I make because I have chosen to follow my ambitions at the expense of my friends, family and sanity.

Creating things is not easy.  Building anything is a battle.  It is an act of sacrifice.

These are the excuses I have for being a dick.

I tell myself all these things over and over.

I tell myself that next week, month, year will be better.

After the software is done.
After I finish staining the stairs.
After the kitchen is done.
After we have our house warming.
After the next BEEF event is planned.

Then I can take the time for the ones who have been waiting for me.  Hoping I will come back.

Why they bother I don't know...  

In my darker moments I resent them for needing things from me.  Don't they get it?  Don't they understand?  I feel like they all want a pound a flesh measured out by onces of guilt.  Guilt for events missed, for milestones ignored or belated wishes and apologies half felt.  Because anything that gets in the way of me finishing this frantic todo list in my mind is an impediment that needs to avoided or incinerated.

Small pleasures abandoned or barren.

Sometimes I catch glimpses of myself and what I see terrifies that little part of me that doesn't care about the infernal todo.  The rest of me says this is the way you need to be to get shit done.

If I had a dollar for every time someone I love has said "we need to spend more time together" or "I wish I saw you more" in the last year, I would be a wealthy man.

Then that little island of resistance in the storm of my brain whispers.  You are wealthy so very wealthy and so very misguided.

Thats when I know I haven't gone, at least not completely.

Maybe one day I will be back but am not sure the path or the process.

Maybe I should add it to my todo list...